theres no roses here

Dear Rosa,
I'm sick of carrying this burden on my back.
Jairo Jairo.
Sick of losing my humane particles and everything else I lack.
Jairo Jairo.
I want to let go of you, but I won't and I can't
cause I'm scared of your emerging suicide rants
Jairo Jairo.
Don't scare me like that cause all my fears are piled up on our old dusty 'welcome home' mat.
Jairo Jairo.
Mannn, I fucking hate you. Nooo,I love you, I'm sick of writting about you.
Jairo Jairo.
You're the angel I lost
and this fee, this guilt
is such an expensive cost.
Jairo Jairo.
I'm just sick of being...sick.
Tired of carrying this imaginable pain, growing so damn thick.
Jairo Jairo.
You're an once upon a time angel
and I'm the crazed deranged demon.
You're growing into my enemy.
Jairo Jairo.
Get up and be a man.
Get the hell up! and just take my hand.
When the clock is constantly ticking.
I get more distant, cause waiting on you.
Is gonna be the death of me.
Shit, Jairo.

Can't you see?