growing pains

I can't even write
yet..I'm writting
here I am yelling at the wall,
constantly reciting
the growth of me
and all I got to say
is it hurts, cause I stand
like a warrior
hit, kicked and bruised
with my frustration in the
abyss
of whats curled up
in my fist
i have contained a little hope
but contain a permanent addiction
and it's the cycle to
how i cope, so stay focus
for the flow has to continue
cause its like im sitting here
reading my dark past on this menu
just waiting for me to choose
which road i will take
but im already the creator
into the messes that i make
while y'all staring at me
just waiting for me to break
and then i say gahdamn!
another mistake
1 loss
1 gain
and i conclude it is
simply my growing pains
so i stand tall
yet so do my flaws
but i remember
i am a warrior
for the battle will
never end between
my insanity
vs.
the sane
and i conclude its nothing
but my
growing pains.