There’s no way that I can have you back
No way that I can have your back
Never again because I stabbed your back
this is my apology
My tears are the letters in the words
These words in the sentence
I hope can float into your heart
Because I can’t cry anymore
I’m so dried up from the pain in the start
You were there to wipe the flaws off my cheek
You found me when I played hide n seek
You put a band aid on my heart that use to leak
but I ran so far and so fast
because I wasn’t done with my past
but now ?
how?
Im not done with you
And I tried I tried so hard to shake this
Dust
Oh I must!!
Off of my shoulders
But what if
What if
He was the wrong cliff?
To jump into forever with
What if ?
It wasn’t normal
Our kiss
it was abnormal
our endless bliss
two broke ass niggas
but I felt rich
when I was with you
I toss and turn
And my heart yearns
And my lips start to burn
Because they need yours
And no one else
but back to reality
and I hope you can let go
of your rules and formality
and just imagine taking me back
and starting over
and im so sorry it is over
but if I have to fight
…I will
Ill fight until
One of us is killed
So don’t turn back
My arms are open to catch your back
So …come back
Monday, November 29, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
memoirs of a rose (the finale)
the reason, the inspriration, the person
i tried sooo hard with imitation
wrote back to me
its been forever since i read your sighs
your cries and your heart beat
through your words
i said id always love you
id said id wait ...
but time changed my face
i fell in love with hate
cause i thought u forgot me
like you said "just forget me"
i mean , you got engaged...right?
youre in love right?
but ive noticed its my name that you write
in vain
and its such a shame
because you're the one to blameso stop throwing me into the flames
how long will it be when we will stop
writting to each other through poetry?
how long will it be
when we can just talk like how it use to be
you and me
me and you
now it seems like your heart has turned blue
circles created us
because i followed you, needed you
you see i was young i had no clue
you were the inspriration that got me to write
my first poem
the respiration that got me to to recite my first
poem
but now i stand on my own
writting my poems
well u will never let me go
and i know you can never let me go
in the way that ive let you go
you will always be my rose
and i propose a hand shake
to kill whatever you have left towards me
because im happy
im in love with someone else
someone that loves me underneath it all
someone that caresses and kisses my flaw
and i wouldnt trade it all for nothing
i write my last poem for you today.
because i have tears right now
because i remember the day i use to pray
that id forget your name
and have nothing to say
towards you mi rosa...
so good night and goodluck
-Natasha Gordon
i tried sooo hard with imitation
wrote back to me
its been forever since i read your sighs
your cries and your heart beat
through your words
i said id always love you
id said id wait ...
but time changed my face
i fell in love with hate
cause i thought u forgot me
like you said "just forget me"
i mean , you got engaged...right?
youre in love right?
but ive noticed its my name that you write
in vain
and its such a shame
because you're the one to blameso stop throwing me into the flames
how long will it be when we will stop
writting to each other through poetry?
how long will it be
when we can just talk like how it use to be
you and me
me and you
now it seems like your heart has turned blue
circles created us
because i followed you, needed you
you see i was young i had no clue
you were the inspriration that got me to write
my first poem
the respiration that got me to to recite my first
poem
but now i stand on my own
writting my poems
well u will never let me go
and i know you can never let me go
in the way that ive let you go
you will always be my rose
and i propose a hand shake
to kill whatever you have left towards me
because im happy
im in love with someone else
someone that loves me underneath it all
someone that caresses and kisses my flaw
and i wouldnt trade it all for nothing
i write my last poem for you today.
because i have tears right now
because i remember the day i use to pray
that id forget your name
and have nothing to say
towards you mi rosa...
so good night and goodluck
-Natasha Gordon
open water
the ocean
we are in the middle of it
because its been 50 mins,17 hours and 24 days
and i miss you seems like the only thing i know how to say
the waves keep crashing on me
reminding me on how far you're away
and it makes me cry
makes me want to just die
when youre gone
my spirit is with you
but i still float here all alone
taking it second by second by minute by inch
to getting closer to your kiss
that haunts me and makes me flinch
your arms that hold me
and your stare ...
ah baby... it just isnt fair
we ask god, why did we take on the dare
of this pain we knew we'd bare
why??!?
because i love you
i need you like you need me
the air is polluted without you
without you i win in defeat
my blood flow slows down
and my heart loses its beat
...its that serious
when it comes to you and me
im right here and you're on the other side of the sea
with all the treading, kicking and fighting to stay afloat
sometimes i close my eyes to remember when we were on land
face to face
hand in hand
sane minds
with our hearts perfectly aligned
it felt like the closest thing to heaven
ah that beautiful day on september 7th
but right now i recite this poem
to the wall pretending that maybe
you'd hear me writting for you
feel my pen bleed for you on the paper
feel my heart beat for you in the life
we are strong baby
we will defeat the strife of the negativity
as these sharks circle around us
the challenges we purely disgust
and one day itll just be ... us
but for now
keep treading
keep floating
keep praying that these surrounding frowns
will never let us drown.
-Natasha Gordon
we are in the middle of it
because its been 50 mins,17 hours and 24 days
and i miss you seems like the only thing i know how to say
the waves keep crashing on me
reminding me on how far you're away
and it makes me cry
makes me want to just die
when youre gone
my spirit is with you
but i still float here all alone
taking it second by second by minute by inch
to getting closer to your kiss
that haunts me and makes me flinch
your arms that hold me
and your stare ...
ah baby... it just isnt fair
we ask god, why did we take on the dare
of this pain we knew we'd bare
why??!?
because i love you
i need you like you need me
the air is polluted without you
without you i win in defeat
my blood flow slows down
and my heart loses its beat
...its that serious
when it comes to you and me
im right here and you're on the other side of the sea
with all the treading, kicking and fighting to stay afloat
sometimes i close my eyes to remember when we were on land
face to face
hand in hand
sane minds
with our hearts perfectly aligned
it felt like the closest thing to heaven
ah that beautiful day on september 7th
but right now i recite this poem
to the wall pretending that maybe
you'd hear me writting for you
feel my pen bleed for you on the paper
feel my heart beat for you in the life
we are strong baby
we will defeat the strife of the negativity
as these sharks circle around us
the challenges we purely disgust
and one day itll just be ... us
but for now
keep treading
keep floating
keep praying that these surrounding frowns
will never let us drown.
-Natasha Gordon
breathing with no air
life is cold without you
i get more bruises without you
when i though life would be a
cruise without you
if i go ahead and stand alone
breathe alone
this is my anthem
this is nothing but
my song of the
screeching melodies of all
that is wrong
i took my heart out
when i kissed your
hand goodbye
i killed myself when i left
nothing but my sighs
to your lips of despair
now i walk around stupid
yelling fuck you cupid!
but who cares??
you were the only one that did
but i pushed you off
for a good reason
the reason that i dont deserve it
never believed in it
so why should i recieve it?
your perfection and my infection
to the addition of your submission
of your constant love
I was born alone
i'll die alone
i'll cry alone
and dont worry
i'll pay off the loan
of your goodness
but my goodness!
i hope i dont choke you
with all my negativity
and doubt
...so for now?
turn the lights out
along with my heart
....i always liked it dark
i get more bruises without you
when i though life would be a
cruise without you
if i go ahead and stand alone
breathe alone
this is my anthem
this is nothing but
my song of the
screeching melodies of all
that is wrong
i took my heart out
when i kissed your
hand goodbye
i killed myself when i left
nothing but my sighs
to your lips of despair
now i walk around stupid
yelling fuck you cupid!
but who cares??
you were the only one that did
but i pushed you off
for a good reason
the reason that i dont deserve it
never believed in it
so why should i recieve it?
your perfection and my infection
to the addition of your submission
of your constant love
I was born alone
i'll die alone
i'll cry alone
and dont worry
i'll pay off the loan
of your goodness
but my goodness!
i hope i dont choke you
with all my negativity
and doubt
...so for now?
turn the lights out
along with my heart
....i always liked it dark
the delay
nah,nah my dude
slow down and turn around
i made my decision to go ahead
and keep my frown
to prevent myself from that screeching
heartbreak sound
a final decision
to protect me from the incision
of what i have i left in this chest
beating
sweating
but not letting you in
who do you think you are?
...real?!
someone i could actually confide in and feel?
its too much like right
so i'll just be on my way
go back to the fast lane
back to the insane
for there is no such thing
as sane
but oh my gosh
i must be losing my brain
to be pushing such an angelic figure
out of my way
but not today
i will not fall for the trick
i aint no trick
im just too weak
i checked in 2 hours ago
im just so fucking sick
you going straight for
my heart
...like you gon heal it
you've admire me and my wounds
from the start
...but i'm gon kill it
so dont act shocked
but i dont know what i was thinking
letting my heart be unlocked
acting like you might change
my phantom ways
because i belong in the dark
i am dark
i belong to be alone
made to echo
is anyone home??!
are you feeling me now
or is this a factor of wow
but please go ahead and take a bow
so i can clap
at the mishap of my
torn down map
to a happy ending
like cinderella with her fella
im not saying you're fake
you're actually the closest thing
to the aunthetic
give or take
but im just broke
cant afford another massacre
of falling in love
then eventually
falling in hell
cant and wont
you're beautiful
...but im ugly
just like this poem
so go drive into someone else's
heart
bc mine is delayed
from the clash of permanent darts
-Natasha Gordon
slow down and turn around
i made my decision to go ahead
and keep my frown
to prevent myself from that screeching
heartbreak sound
a final decision
to protect me from the incision
of what i have i left in this chest
beating
sweating
but not letting you in
who do you think you are?
...real?!
someone i could actually confide in and feel?
its too much like right
so i'll just be on my way
go back to the fast lane
back to the insane
for there is no such thing
as sane
but oh my gosh
i must be losing my brain
to be pushing such an angelic figure
out of my way
but not today
i will not fall for the trick
i aint no trick
im just too weak
i checked in 2 hours ago
im just so fucking sick
you going straight for
my heart
...like you gon heal it
you've admire me and my wounds
from the start
...but i'm gon kill it
so dont act shocked
but i dont know what i was thinking
letting my heart be unlocked
acting like you might change
my phantom ways
because i belong in the dark
i am dark
i belong to be alone
made to echo
is anyone home??!
are you feeling me now
or is this a factor of wow
but please go ahead and take a bow
so i can clap
at the mishap of my
torn down map
to a happy ending
like cinderella with her fella
im not saying you're fake
you're actually the closest thing
to the aunthetic
give or take
but im just broke
cant afford another massacre
of falling in love
then eventually
falling in hell
cant and wont
you're beautiful
...but im ugly
just like this poem
so go drive into someone else's
heart
bc mine is delayed
from the clash of permanent darts
-Natasha Gordon
the stand still
It’s a tough world out there
Full of boundaries and limits
Of empty handed cares
But I wouldn’t dare cross those boundaries
Because I am simply scared
I breathe in and out my fears
As I grow old with these years
So I just follow the traces of my tears
Oh,, it’s a long road here
Take my heart off the shelf
And blow off the dust
Its been a while for me to give
A person my full trust
Because of all of the mistrust
Lead me to the dust and eventually
It became hurricane
Where I sat in a corner and became insane
Like these words that I vomit out of my mouth
It been a while since I wrote and let my pencil bleed out
Im at a beautiful stand still
Where life has no purpose
But a purpose to the unknown
Is this my rebirth
Where im planted to be grown
All over again??
Into something great?
Because lord, I tried that other gate
And its just my fate to keep breathing
When theres no hope to be around
When theres no one to be found
Keep breathing
When they stomp you to the ground
I stand still yet tall
When theres nothing but a dying sound
For now ill give it my all
And wait for you lord
To catch me when I fall.
-Natasha Gordon
Full of boundaries and limits
Of empty handed cares
But I wouldn’t dare cross those boundaries
Because I am simply scared
I breathe in and out my fears
As I grow old with these years
So I just follow the traces of my tears
Oh,, it’s a long road here
Take my heart off the shelf
And blow off the dust
Its been a while for me to give
A person my full trust
Because of all of the mistrust
Lead me to the dust and eventually
It became hurricane
Where I sat in a corner and became insane
Like these words that I vomit out of my mouth
It been a while since I wrote and let my pencil bleed out
Im at a beautiful stand still
Where life has no purpose
But a purpose to the unknown
Is this my rebirth
Where im planted to be grown
All over again??
Into something great?
Because lord, I tried that other gate
And its just my fate to keep breathing
When theres no hope to be around
When theres no one to be found
Keep breathing
When they stomp you to the ground
I stand still yet tall
When theres nothing but a dying sound
For now ill give it my all
And wait for you lord
To catch me when I fall.
-Natasha Gordon
Maria
I will cry for you
Die for you
Never say goodbye to you
I will breathe for you
When you cant seem to
Catch on to your sigh
I will be with you
When we take that ride
Up on this mountain high
You’re my angel
You’re my heartbeat
You’re my cure
You’re my everything
I will hold on to you
Listen to this song I sing
For you
When no one is there
I’ll be there
I’ll be behind you
So you can fall on my
Pillow full of cares for you
I will kiss your nose and blow
Away your despairs
You are so strong
As you face this brick wall
Full of wrongs
I stand here with you
As your daughter
Your creation
Your dedication
Your imitation
But never your resignation
We are one
You and me, mama
Day by day
The struggle will never seem to
Go away
But mama, as people
Stray…
Im here
I will stay
So rest your weak legs and just
…lay
Lay… with your child
And tune out what these snakes say
Because its us against the world mama
Us against the world mama
Its us
You and me
And the sea full of negativity
I know your heart hurts
And when you hurt
I die
But…like I said
I die for you
Cry for you
Fall for you
Give my all for you
I cant stop writing this
For you
Mama,this love is coming out
Of my pores onto their page for you
So let these words be the beat of your
Weary heart
Mama, I’ll be there with you
Forever
Like I was in the start.
-Natasha Gordon
Die for you
Never say goodbye to you
I will breathe for you
When you cant seem to
Catch on to your sigh
I will be with you
When we take that ride
Up on this mountain high
You’re my angel
You’re my heartbeat
You’re my cure
You’re my everything
I will hold on to you
Listen to this song I sing
For you
When no one is there
I’ll be there
I’ll be behind you
So you can fall on my
Pillow full of cares for you
I will kiss your nose and blow
Away your despairs
You are so strong
As you face this brick wall
Full of wrongs
I stand here with you
As your daughter
Your creation
Your dedication
Your imitation
But never your resignation
We are one
You and me, mama
Day by day
The struggle will never seem to
Go away
But mama, as people
Stray…
Im here
I will stay
So rest your weak legs and just
…lay
Lay… with your child
And tune out what these snakes say
Because its us against the world mama
Us against the world mama
Its us
You and me
And the sea full of negativity
I know your heart hurts
And when you hurt
I die
But…like I said
I die for you
Cry for you
Fall for you
Give my all for you
I cant stop writing this
For you
Mama,this love is coming out
Of my pores onto their page for you
So let these words be the beat of your
Weary heart
Mama, I’ll be there with you
Forever
Like I was in the start.
-Natasha Gordon
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