another poem about losing you.

I sit in the corner…once again
With an empty heart
And no hope for it to mend
Yeah once again
I listen to the lyrics
‘Memories made in the coldest winter’
As I’m frozen with my face full of splinters
You have moved on
And I watch you smile
And I smile then cry
Then sigh then
Refuse to say bye to this
Day
But you already walked away
While ‘dancing in the moonlight’
Is on replay.
But hey
It was me that fucked up.
I can’t let go, won’t let you go
It’s a feeling I just won’t shake
So,i have no choice, a force of rejoice and no more of a voice,
to simply fall in love with heartbreak.
Give or take
But is there a drug, some kinda viral bug
For me to forget your name
And our delusional fame
That we called our love game
Is there?
Cause ill take anything
I don’t fricking care
Whats to lose?
When I have so many to choose
Yet I keep running back to the ghost
The spirit of you
In my sleep, as I cringe
And want to drown myself
As I weep
A river
An ocean
To end this despair
and this constant tear.

...hi

when i put it to my mouth
the blaze excels
tells
fucking yells out my dreams
and im out... done
im dancing alone
ha, im fucked
but its just my luck
that my dreams turns to
my nightmare
when im telling god
it aint fair
why we gotta work so hard?!
do you even care?
...when it hits my mouth
i aint even trippin
no problem emerge
the know is the unknown
where it dont know shit,
laughing hard, cuz we
will never get it
im fucking high
im swallowing the planets
fucking on mars
and eating the stars
cliche?
but hey
those stars taste soo good
but thats ok
that im defined :misunderstood
when it carresses my mouth
i see my dreams finally
bow to me
surrender to the queen
where i've seen it all
i conquer the world
and no longer fall
oh, i believe this blade
of such a flower
gives me that ....mmmmm
of a genuine mystique power
where I'm sitting pretty on
my golden tower
...but reality labels me as a stranger
and it's nothing but the danger
that touches my mouth
and im feeling like star trek
an instant beam
man, it takes me back to my dreams

if you died today

If you died today
…the world would drown
with my tears, full of images
of your face, I was in our home
…now it just an empty space
If you died today
Id hate you for leaving me
Alone in the cold wind
That screeches a song
So ugly
So wrong
As I plant a seed and
The rain is the tears
I bleed
If you died today
The breath that I breathe now
Would break the promise
The vow of my importance
Of my life
Im jus not ready, not prepared
For the gift of strife
Just because you had to go to heaven
And siin washes me as I become jealous
With a fetish of my rebellious heart
I cant stand you for letting
Go, as we drift apart
Cant you see the chipping
Of my heart?!
The logic explains that im in some
Type of delusional
Psychotic
Denial
Some crazy bitch watching her mind
Run into the distant mile
The logic laughs at the missing poster
On the search of my brain and how
Much I loved you, drives me insane
So if you died today
Id still pretend you’re here
Make the bed, cause I know you’re near
Watching me, getting ready to yell at me
Cause I didn’t do the dishes last night
And ahhhh shit, here comes our daily fight
That I will enjoy every second of cause
If you really died today
Mama…id have nothing to say

the war

...we fight
our own battles
dance with us
in the midst of the night
because we fight
with our wishes
to see daylight
we fight
we believe
we decieve
but recieve
the never ending
war
and feel the
pain from
our hearts
that is tore
and sore
and we pause
and ask
who we fighting for?
sweat and blood
covers the
beauty of every
particle
history
and article
of our lives
but all we can do
is
...fight
we struggle
we scream
let them feel our might
...right?
cause we arent any different
to a lion
a gazelle
we just fight
thinkin it would
prevent us from
surcoming to hell
but ...hell
we already in hell
and the pages
are slowly burning
from the sweet tale
as we
fight in our cage
as known as jail
we hear the snare drum
speeding up
gravitating up
as our heart beats
quicker and the pain
starts
to
comfort
comfort? us
we dont know
that soon we
will be equivalent to the dust
that we sneeze out of our nose
and i jus want to propose
that
we are soldiers
we baffle
we strangle
we fuck
kiss
hiss
miss
our own battles
were our hearts
get so tight
....we just fight