russian roulette starring the insecurities

do my insecurities protect me?
do my insecurities choke me?
accusations
accusations
imitations
imitation
fascination
with the abomination
back to the
accusations
accusations
one by one
when im just waiting
on you to say ...
im done
the string
gets thinner
everytime i fall harder for you
cause i was designed to love you
and to mistrust you
as i say things out of the proportion
and you look at me with a puzzled face
i see you're tired of the same ol shit
and i feel like its a disease i have
and i hate myself for that
who do i blame in this
game where i see all
hearts as replicas of the same ol
same of this heatbreakin claim
that drags my neck
like a dog chain
do my insecurities comfort me?
do my insecurities stab me?
i love you i love you
but im so frickin bi-polar
cuz the next min
where were you
why didnt you call
who do i run to
oh i hate it
when i wish i never met you in the first place
wish i never gotten into this case
cause itd be easier walking around like
a zombie
without a care in the world
you see, i aint tryna rhyme
im tryna talk to you
so please accept my tone
and dont hang up the phone
cuz something is whispering to me
that you're the one
and if you call back...
please call back
and knock on my door
please prove you are the one
the one
and only
my one
and dont let my insecurities
play this russian roulette with
this gun.