the delay

nah,nah my dude
slow down and turn around
i made my decision to go ahead
and keep my frown
to prevent myself from that screeching
heartbreak sound
a final decision
to protect me from the incision
of what i have i left in this chest
beating
sweating
but not letting you in
who do you think you are?
...real?!
someone i could actually confide in and feel?
its too much like right
so i'll just be on my way
go back to the fast lane
back to the insane
for there is no such thing
as sane
but oh my gosh
i must be losing my brain
to be pushing such an angelic figure
out of my way
but not today
i will not fall for the trick
i aint no trick
im just too weak
i checked in 2 hours ago
im just so fucking sick
you going straight for
my heart
...like you gon heal it
you've admire me and my wounds
from the start
...but i'm gon kill it
so dont act shocked
but i dont know what i was thinking
letting my heart be unlocked
acting like you might change
my phantom ways
because i belong in the dark
i am dark
i belong to be alone
made to echo
is anyone home??!
are you feeling me now
or is this a factor of wow
but please go ahead and take a bow
so i can clap
at the mishap of my
torn down map
to a happy ending
like cinderella with her fella
im not saying you're fake
you're actually the closest thing
to the aunthetic
give or take
but im just broke
cant afford another massacre
of falling in love
then eventually
falling in hell
cant and wont
you're beautiful
...but im ugly
just like this poem
so go drive into someone else's
heart
bc mine is delayed
from the clash of permanent darts


-Natasha Gordon