I cant remember the last time I smiled
the last time I really meant for the curves on my lips to dent
i've concluded to losing that file
im in a trench on a no man’s land
im fighting a battle with an empty gun and no plan
i guess writing this is a start to get me out of this sinking sand
oh lord, I forgot how to smile
forgot how to love
forgot how to hold someone the right way
I forgot the words that boil in my heart and forget what to say
I confuse my day with night and night with day
Ive lost my mind and forgot how to pray
so ill start by writing this
I use to be good, real good
the words id write seeped into their drinks and cold ice
while they took a sip and understood
oh If I could just bring it back
back on track
id maybe remember how to mend this crack in my confidence
if I could bring it back
id remember how to love myself and be bullet proof to any attack
I forgot to escape and still be sober
forgot to feel young instead I feel older
I have no more oxygen to blow away these fears
but im sick of depending on someone to supposedly
kiss away my tears
my foundation has cracked like ground zero
torn down and silent
im the refugee walking around but not looking for a hero
not anymore
Im still here for a reason and I really cant seem to figure why
so the new mentality is to keep on moving
to keep on crying
to keep on hustling
to keep on trying
to keep holding on
to stay strapped up
head up like a pledge line
don’t let them break your line
your path
let the vultures circle up in the sky
that’s all they know
its their only craft
that’s all they remember
but I will remember
Ill remember how to smile
Ill get my nose out the corner
Ill drop these invisible fees I hold against myself
Ill love again
Ill open my eyes to see
I just have to get out of this room
but wheres the key?
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Monday, December 19, 2011
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